I received this message from my mom before I went back home from work. Then I remembered, Yeah! My family is in difficult situation now. My mom was planning to file an annulment to end her relationship with my dad.
When I was younger, whenever we had a debate at school about divorce, I always disagreed with it. I was immature that time. I believed that what was bound by God couldn't be broken. Every problem that a couple would face would have a corresponding solution but it would never be divorce. Divorce would always have a bad effect to family especially to their children. It would cause rebellion, drug addiction, juvenile delinquency, and never ending misunderstanding between the couple.
But that was before...
I have seen my mom heart broken, depressed, couldn't eat..sleep...work...and even talk. I could not bear the pain. Just seeing her made me all torn up...talking to her was worst. I have seen my mom tried to save their marriage but still... it didn't do good. My dad continued to hurt my mom's feeling. Until they finally went separate ways. My dad stayed in Olongapo and my mom continued to live her life in Manila. In the beginning, my mom continued to feel down up until she met her special friend. My mom has been happy since that day. She felt that she has found somebody who would stay with her no matter what happened. I didn't agree with what's happening between them but as I got to know the person better and realized that he didn't think of anything else but for our own good, I already accepted him. They were very discrete before but now they are being more open, though sometimes it irritates me whenever I see them very cheesy.
My mom have to spend a lot of money for their annulment. It would even take years... I told my mom every consequences that she might face while undergoing the annulment, but my mom still strong with her decision.
Now, I realized that it would be best for my parents to find their separate ways and just be friends. It would never work out again for them. I could see that my mom was very happy now...I don't want her to be the depressed mom I saw before. I love her so much that I want her to always be happy. I love my dad yet, I never wish for them to be one again... Like what I said, "he had been a good teacher but not a husband to my mom"

"I would not see my baby..."
It was Friday. The day that I should be spending time with my baby. However, plans changed. My students persuaded me to play billiard with her and with my co-tutor at my house. She persuaded me well that I couldn't resist...
I already missed my baby. Just thinking of not seeing the person I love made me feel even worst. I thought of the times we spent at the mall...in my room...when we watched TV together...having those good laugh. I couldn't stand it. I wanted to pospone my plan with my student but I already said yes...I wanted to make excuses just not to go with them to my house...
Then I realized...Who would you choose? A person who you love or a person who loves you?
When I first met my baby...it was just pure friendship. I didn't really feel anything towards that person. I like the person in front of me but...so I still went out with that person...
As the time past by, My feelings towards that person grew even stronger...and I just found myself in a relationship. At first, I told myself, "I would not get serious about it". I was hurt so many times to those people I have loved. I have given them everything just to make our relationship stronger and better....but they still failed me. Before my last relationship, I promised myself that I would never get serious with this kind of relationship...I would not fall so deep that I could not recover easily...
But I'm happy now! Happier than before, I have my baby who loves me so much..who is ready to be with me what ever happens. I have faced difficult problems with that person and my love get stronger and stronger every passing day. Before I don't believe that you could learn to love a person. You cannot dictate your feelings...but I'm sure now...you can learn to love especially if the person love you so...he could fill up what is not enough.
I love my baby so much. It will be difficult for me if the day comes that my baby needs to leave me. It would really broke my heart to pieces...
Don't believe that you could not learn to love...it's nonsense...I have been stupid before but now I'm more sure that ever...
"Then my mom woke me up when my eyes were still heavy to open..."
I always hate Sunday due to my mom, she makes me wake up early in the morning to prepare to go to church. It makes me annoy to prepare during the time that I should be resting...eating breakfast...taking a shower...fixing myself.
"We are going to be late!"
Those words makes me feel even more irritated...Though she isn't pertaining to me but the shouting...it's shaking my brain.
But I realize something while we are on our way to the church. It's nice to spend time with your family. My mom forces me to wake up early during Sunday because it's the only time that she can spend quality and happy time with her sons and daughter...because during the weekdays, I'm at work...my sister goes to school...my brother works in the canteen in the afternoon and my mom in the morning... Yeah! we almost can't see each other during the weekdays.
Then I said, "Mom let's eat somewhere after the mass." "Out again? I don't have money, you can just eat in the canteen." my mom replied.
My mom has always been pickled minded in a good way. When she said the we can't eat out after the mass because she doesn't have money, we would still eat out after the mass...though we don't force her do to that.
"A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie." - Tenneva Jordan
It's fun to spend time with my family sometimes. I get to know them better...and I realize by doing so that we have a lot in common than what I know. It's not all about going with friends...who I thought is more similar to me...drinking...dancing in the club...watching movies...eating out. My family knows me better than they are...my mom knows my favorite food, that's why I always want to go home early. My brother know what I don't like...that's why he knows that I would get mad when he borrows my clothes without my permission though he still does that and not let me see him. My sister knows that I love my dog and she's taking good care of it. Yeah! they know me better!
"The family is a haven in a heartless world." - Attributed to Christopher Lasch
I have fun with my family without trying to impress them. They accept me for who I am. I know that they know me but still make me feel that I'm not different. Maybe you think that I have the perfect family but no...I have a broken family. My dad left us. But still what is left for me makes me even more complete than those family that are complete in other people's eye but incomplete in there own eyes. Actually, I am much happier than when my dad was still here. It's not that I don't like my dad...In fact, I love and respect him...I couldn't stand seeing my mom being depressed whenever seeing my dad's here. Though my dad has been a good teacher, he hadn't been a good husband to my mom. She is now...happier in spite of a lot of problems...not having my dad...working more that 12 hours...I can see in her eyes that she's contented with what's happening now though she still dreams big not for her but for us. I couldn't forget this thing that she said when she was talking about my dad...
"Yes! I'm doing it for my sons and daughter. All I'm doing is for their good and not for us. We couldn't bring these once were dead. We would die before them...that's why they need this more than us..."
"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs in my field, since the payment is pure love." - Mildred B. Vermont
Yes! I never gave anything precious to my mom...just worldly gifts...But my mom gives us everything....Everything that she has. I could have just given her love but sometimes I failed to give it...I'm blessed because I have her...she might not be the greatest mother there is but surely she has been the best mom I have ever met...