"I would not see my baby..."
It was Friday. The day that I should be spending time with my baby. However, plans changed. My students persuaded me to play billiard with her and with my co-tutor at my house. She persuaded me well that I couldn't resist...
I already missed my baby. Just thinking of not seeing the person I love made me feel even worst. I thought of the times we spent at the mall...in my room...when we watched TV together...having those good laugh. I couldn't stand it. I wanted to pospone my plan with my student but I already said yes...I wanted to make excuses just not to go with them to my house...
Then I realized...Who would you choose? A person who you love or a person who loves you?
When I first met my baby...it was just pure friendship. I didn't really feel anything towards that person. I like the person in front of me but...so I still went out with that person...
As the time past by, My feelings towards that person grew even stronger...and I just found myself in a relationship. At first, I told myself, "I would not get serious about it". I was hurt so many times to those people I have loved. I have given them everything just to make our relationship stronger and better....but they still failed me. Before my last relationship, I promised myself that I would never get serious with this kind of relationship...I would not fall so deep that I could not recover easily...
But I'm happy now! Happier than before, I have my baby who loves me so much..who is ready to be with me what ever happens. I have faced difficult problems with that person and my love get stronger and stronger every passing day. Before I don't believe that you could learn to love a person. You cannot dictate your feelings...but I'm sure now...you can learn to love especially if the person love you so...he could fill up what is not enough.
I love my baby so much. It will be difficult for me if the day comes that my baby needs to leave me. It would really broke my heart to pieces...
Don't believe that you could not learn to love...it's nonsense...I have been stupid before but now I'm more sure that ever...
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